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2location: New York, San Francisco
3description: Understanding myself
4date: 2019-10-10
5tags: me, self-exploration, cats, dogs
6aliases: writings/cat_person
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8
9# Cat person
10
11I am a cat person.
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13Not in the sense that I like cats more than dogs,
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15but I see myself more of a cat than a dog.
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17I am gentle and fluid and smooth.
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19I do not care about food.
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21Yes, I can be hungry, and I can eat your food.
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23But I will not love you more just because you feed me.
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25I don’t care about that, and I will never will.
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27I perceive love differently.
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29Can you stay with me while I have my mood swings?
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31Can you stay with me when I am snarky or making punchy remarks?
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33Can you stay with me when I don't want to see anyone and be by myself?
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35Can you touch me and hug me when I need it?
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37And accept that there are times when I can't receive touch?
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39I am not a dog.
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41I am much more complicated.
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43I have a multitude of paradoxes inside me.
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45I can crave for distance and closeness at the same time.
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47I love and despise smartness at the same time.
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49I can look at you with admiration,
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51but I can also be completely detached.
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53It is that simple.
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55You wouldn't see full-time adoration in my eyes.
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57I am not a dog. My love is not unconditional.
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59It can be, sure, but not exclusively.
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61I don’t accept you the way you are, because you feed me.
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63I know you can be better.
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65It’s about future for me too. Not only now.
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67Now is beautiful and powerful but it's not enough for me.
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69There can be more. I am demanding.
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71I care about details too.
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73I care about my looks, my brain, my body, my emotions.
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75Everything matters. Not just food.
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77I am a cat. Everything matters to me.
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79I am a cat. I am gentle being.
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81My touch gives you pleasure.
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83But beware, I can bite and scratch your face.
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85I am an intelligent being but I'm a wild animal too.
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87Be genuine, pay attention, listen, care, and we will be good.